A Little Personal Struggle

There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story within you.

-Maya Angelou

I’ve stared at this computer screen for so long, I don’t think I even see it anymore.

I started this blog to write our RV journey. I haven’t stuck to it the way I wanted to and I definitely don’t extend myself grace for lagging on the schedule I wanted to keep up with.
So what’s my problem?
Lemme tell you…… I got this little problem called……

Imposter Syndrome.

I have this fear that I’m not qualified.
I’m not a professional writer even though I enjoy it.
We aren’t professional travelers. We’re literally just winging it!
Who wants to read our nonsense when we’re just YouTubing fixes and learning along the way?

It’s aggravating that doubt takes over quickly and gets all up in my way.
So, I’m sitting here writing it all out.

Some of it has to do with the amount of negativity we’ve gotten as we’ve been living in our RV.

And a lot of it has to do with my upbringing and their doubt in me.
Childhood trauma is something I am working through, but at times, that doubt in myself which stems from trauma still creeps in.

I’ve been in professional therapy for about 2 years now specifically to work on childhood and adult traumas.
Therapy can be done on the road in an RV in all different states. I am meeting my therapist via video meeting once a week religiously. I’ve met her in several states and every time she is there for me, guiding and giving me the tools I need to work through trauma.

I’m a work in progress.
I’ve learned to extend grace to myself.
I just need to get to that place of grace in my writing.

I want to tell the stories of our travels. The fixes we’ve done along the way and what/how we’ve learned how to do it. The amazing things we get to see. The incredible nature we are forever surrounded by. The most unique and extraordinary people we get to meet.

I want to tell my personal story because if my story resonates with just one person, I’ve made a difference in world and that’s all I really desire with these writings. It isn’t to make money or gain a million followers, it’s just to touch someone’s life.

So, I’m committing to more writing.
No more doubt.
Just writing what I think is interesting and hopefully it’ll be interesting to you too.

Thank you for following.
Thank you for reading.
Thank you for being you.

Bear Cave RV Resort, Buchanan, Michigan, September 2021

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